i've just got my result today. although i know it's still not fixed yet, i have no idea why i cried when i knew it. i started to cry like i wasn't satisfied with it. I wish to get higher than the reality. but i realized that i should be grateful to god that this doesn't mean the end of the world. i still have a lot of things to do to reach my dreams.
I think i cried because i think this exam is about pride. it can lower your confidence if you don't get your dream scores. for example in my case, my school is one of favorite high schools in jakarta, even indonesia. then as a student of that school, I expected to get pretty high scores on this national examination. thanks to god my school is in the top 10 of schools which got high averages upon this exam in the whole Indonesia. 2 of my friends are in the top 12 of indonesian students in terms of national examination's averages.
and also in this case, both my friends had never been on the first rank in school examinations before. in my opinion, national examination requires a luck. you can even get high scores even if you're never on the upper rank.
Indonesian high school's national examination include 6 subjects such as math, physics, indonesian, english, chemistry, and biology. i don't think indonesian score really determines your destiny. it's about whether you have a good luck or not. the answers are mostly opinions. i wanna be an international doctor and that's why my indonesian result doesn't affect my future at all.
my father said that the national examination's result didn't specify the future. we don't need to give out our national examination result in our acceptance job. my mother also told me i had to work really harder in the university and also while doing my job because they're the real determinations. high school was only a preparation for the real battle. just let the past go by, high school is only the beginning, not an end.
I still have a lot of chances in reaching my dreams. i don't need to worry. i will keep doing my best and hoping god bless me.
23.5.13
Movieworm
most people i know are bookworms. i love books, well novels. but i'm not crazy of them. i usually read novels which gonna be made to movies because i already know the actresses and actors who gonna play as the books characters.
i love movies damn much. i love such anti cliche movie. to tell you the truth, i hate such movies ended with "happily ever after". i mean, i do like happy ending, but i don't like such movie which i can predict HOW it's gonna be ended - i'm not really interested in predicting an ending while watching a movie, but if it's predictable, it'll suddenly pop in my head.
if you guys have already watched silver lining playbook played by jennifer lawrence and bradley cooper, you must be knowing the ending which ended with a happily-ever-after ending. I could predict how the movie gonna end even when the movie hadn't reached the climax. i must appreciate jen and brad's acting tho. they were incredible in that movie.
i'm gonna praise the movies which have some mind-blown plot twist. like struck by lightning. written and played by the genius, mr. colfer. sorry but i've gotta say it actually (also) deserves an oscar. mister colfer's acting was priceless and the plot was awesome. it wasn't cliche and was meaningful. it could bring your tears out.
Maybe i should just give out the list of my-kind-of movies.
harry potter & the hunger games
too brilliant to review.
star trek into darkness
my hands shook while watching it. it was incredibly spectacular. imma give you some spoilers so beware.
the plot twist was awesome. I was almost tricked when khan started to cry because his sleeping-friends were gonna be exploded along with the torpedos. i thought he was the good guy seriously. i regretted to predict that it really was marcus who was the bad guy.
maybe there were a bit of lacks in the movie like, marcus' daughter, carol marcus, had ever said "I'm ashamed to be your daughter" or something like that. she had also thought that it was her father who was the bad guy. then khan killed marcus and i didn't see any father-daughter relationship at all after that. she should've realized her fault over that strong sentence.
i love this movie because i didn't see any sexual attraction in it. but many audiences feel a bit upset over carol marcus underwear-scene. it didn't give any meaning to the scene even to the movie, but i thought it was meant to be - can i call it - as comedy. it didn't turn me on at all.
overall, the visual effects were nearly perfect. you've gotta watch it. feel the shock.
struck by lightning
just like I said before, it was anti-cliche and meaningful. the movie begun with carson phillips struck by lightning and dead. overall the movie is like a flash-back when carson is still alive, before struck by the lightning. it was full of brilliant sarcasms, beautiful quotes. well thanks to mister colfer.
shutter island
this movie was freaking mind-blown. leonardo dicaprio's acting was amazing - why hasn't he got any oscar already? - and you're gonna end the movie by saying 'wtf'.
the ward
just like shutter island. it was mind-blown. it was much more horror than shutter island but i've gotta say the plot twist was unpredictable and yes, i ended it with 'wtf'.
the shining
IT WAS CREEPY.
the dream house
it's a story about a person who got a mental disorder just like shutter island and the ward. it was played by agent 007 - it's daniel craig for god sake. in my opinion this movie wasn't as creepy and sadistic as the ward and shutter island. this movie was pretty emotional. the plot twist was brilliant.
maybe if you guys have seen the poster, it looks creepy. but actually the movie isn't as creepy as the poster. it won't bring you a nightmare. i can say this movie was touchy. i watched this with my friends at school and we were like 'aww no' when the whole craig's character's memories finally gone with the fire - just watch the movie already to know what i meant about 'his memories'.
rectoverso
this is my favorite Indonesian movie. although i've read the book - which is better than the movie - but it's worth watching. this movie is about 5 separated stories of unhappily-ever-after love.
a little thing called love
another asian movie i'm crazy about. mario maurer was totally handsome in this movie. it's a thai movie. the plot twist made me cry.
you are the apple of my eye
to be honest i'm not really crazy of this movie as i'm crazy about a little thing called love. but i love the anti cliche plot. another romantic and also touchy movie to watch.
I'm gonna add some more if i have the time to watch. bye.
i love movies damn much. i love such anti cliche movie. to tell you the truth, i hate such movies ended with "happily ever after". i mean, i do like happy ending, but i don't like such movie which i can predict HOW it's gonna be ended - i'm not really interested in predicting an ending while watching a movie, but if it's predictable, it'll suddenly pop in my head.
if you guys have already watched silver lining playbook played by jennifer lawrence and bradley cooper, you must be knowing the ending which ended with a happily-ever-after ending. I could predict how the movie gonna end even when the movie hadn't reached the climax. i must appreciate jen and brad's acting tho. they were incredible in that movie.
i'm gonna praise the movies which have some mind-blown plot twist. like struck by lightning. written and played by the genius, mr. colfer. sorry but i've gotta say it actually (also) deserves an oscar. mister colfer's acting was priceless and the plot was awesome. it wasn't cliche and was meaningful. it could bring your tears out.
Maybe i should just give out the list of my-kind-of movies.
harry potter & the hunger games
too brilliant to review.
star trek into darkness
my hands shook while watching it. it was incredibly spectacular. imma give you some spoilers so beware.
the plot twist was awesome. I was almost tricked when khan started to cry because his sleeping-friends were gonna be exploded along with the torpedos. i thought he was the good guy seriously. i regretted to predict that it really was marcus who was the bad guy.
maybe there were a bit of lacks in the movie like, marcus' daughter, carol marcus, had ever said "I'm ashamed to be your daughter" or something like that. she had also thought that it was her father who was the bad guy. then khan killed marcus and i didn't see any father-daughter relationship at all after that. she should've realized her fault over that strong sentence.
i love this movie because i didn't see any sexual attraction in it. but many audiences feel a bit upset over carol marcus underwear-scene. it didn't give any meaning to the scene even to the movie, but i thought it was meant to be - can i call it - as comedy. it didn't turn me on at all.
overall, the visual effects were nearly perfect. you've gotta watch it. feel the shock.
struck by lightning
just like I said before, it was anti-cliche and meaningful. the movie begun with carson phillips struck by lightning and dead. overall the movie is like a flash-back when carson is still alive, before struck by the lightning. it was full of brilliant sarcasms, beautiful quotes. well thanks to mister colfer.
shutter island
this movie was freaking mind-blown. leonardo dicaprio's acting was amazing - why hasn't he got any oscar already? - and you're gonna end the movie by saying 'wtf'.
the ward
just like shutter island. it was mind-blown. it was much more horror than shutter island but i've gotta say the plot twist was unpredictable and yes, i ended it with 'wtf'.
the shining
IT WAS CREEPY.
the dream house
it's a story about a person who got a mental disorder just like shutter island and the ward. it was played by agent 007 - it's daniel craig for god sake. in my opinion this movie wasn't as creepy and sadistic as the ward and shutter island. this movie was pretty emotional. the plot twist was brilliant.
maybe if you guys have seen the poster, it looks creepy. but actually the movie isn't as creepy as the poster. it won't bring you a nightmare. i can say this movie was touchy. i watched this with my friends at school and we were like 'aww no' when the whole craig's character's memories finally gone with the fire - just watch the movie already to know what i meant about 'his memories'.
rectoverso
this is my favorite Indonesian movie. although i've read the book - which is better than the movie - but it's worth watching. this movie is about 5 separated stories of unhappily-ever-after love.
a little thing called love
another asian movie i'm crazy about. mario maurer was totally handsome in this movie. it's a thai movie. the plot twist made me cry.
you are the apple of my eye
to be honest i'm not really crazy of this movie as i'm crazy about a little thing called love. but i love the anti cliche plot. another romantic and also touchy movie to watch.
I'm gonna add some more if i have the time to watch. bye.
15.5.13
Courage
Courage. to be honest i just knew that word while watching glee s02. this word quite influenced me in doing this journey. without courage, i wouldn't have got through all of these. i'm not really keen on keeping my blog as a diary, but i just wanna share my experience in reaching my aspiration.
as you guys can see from my latest post that i'm interested in the international class of a university. i tried to apply with the talent scouting way. I had submitted the required documents to the website. i had waited for the result maybe for around a month. I'm eager this so bad. i prayed so that i could be accepted by this way. if i pass this, i can be in my desired class without doing any acceptance test first.
and last week, i was called by the university that i had to come to an interview. that was my last fight to be accepted. i practiced with my parents for that interview. i was like 'okay this is gonna be a traditional interview so i have to be relax, nothing to worry because i've done this stuff before'. i prepared some questions which might be asked by the examiner.
The day finally came. it was on monday. i felt prepared and ready for all the cases i was gonna face. at 12 pm, we were gathered in a room. there were 39 of us. i felt optimist that i could be one of the 20 who's gonna be accepted by this special way. we were given a presentation about the interview. it was such a unique interview i could say.
it was called mmi. i didn't really know exactly what kind of interview was that. my friend told me that we were gonna be divided into groups and do the interview in groups which meant together. but, that was all wrong. in this interview, there were 8 stations included 2 stations as 'rest' stations. we were given 7 minutes for each station. I was put into the 2nd session. as i've experienced, those stations divided into:
first. role play.
I didn't prepare for that thing for real. i thought that we were gonna act 'doctor and patient'. this was my first station - i thought it was gonna be the 'traditional interview' station. i was given a case as if i had to take my father's friend to the airport. i didn't think it was such a complicated case but it was getting complicated on responding the father's friend's wish. it really taught me to be calm on every case i've got to solve.
second. discussion.
discussion cases are divided into 3 stations. the first 'discussion' station asked me the opinion about the questionable medical schools in indonesia and what should i do in solving the case. the second station gave me a case if my friend copied my other friend's paper while my other friend actually allowed him and in the problem i was put as the leader of the team. the last station was about kartu jakarta sehat then i was asked to give my own definition about it and my opinion. these stations were quite hard because no one would ever be wrong about the opinions given upon the cases.
third. writing.
i was really scared of this station. when i checked up the case, it was written that i had to write down an instruction in searching up an information with google. It wasn't difficult to write down such instruction, but it was difficult in making a different instruction than others. i really wanted it to be special yet meaty.
fourth. traditional.
It was my last station before the 'rest' station. i was quite prepared for this station but maybe i was nervous so that i was a bit stammered. but thank god i could go through it.
all of them have taught me many things such as in expressing my own opinions, quick thinking, keeping my own arguments. i have to be optimist about the result which is gonna be shown by the end of the month.
yesterday, i found this:
as you guys can see from my latest post that i'm interested in the international class of a university. i tried to apply with the talent scouting way. I had submitted the required documents to the website. i had waited for the result maybe for around a month. I'm eager this so bad. i prayed so that i could be accepted by this way. if i pass this, i can be in my desired class without doing any acceptance test first.
and last week, i was called by the university that i had to come to an interview. that was my last fight to be accepted. i practiced with my parents for that interview. i was like 'okay this is gonna be a traditional interview so i have to be relax, nothing to worry because i've done this stuff before'. i prepared some questions which might be asked by the examiner.
The day finally came. it was on monday. i felt prepared and ready for all the cases i was gonna face. at 12 pm, we were gathered in a room. there were 39 of us. i felt optimist that i could be one of the 20 who's gonna be accepted by this special way. we were given a presentation about the interview. it was such a unique interview i could say.
it was called mmi. i didn't really know exactly what kind of interview was that. my friend told me that we were gonna be divided into groups and do the interview in groups which meant together. but, that was all wrong. in this interview, there were 8 stations included 2 stations as 'rest' stations. we were given 7 minutes for each station. I was put into the 2nd session. as i've experienced, those stations divided into:
first. role play.
I didn't prepare for that thing for real. i thought that we were gonna act 'doctor and patient'. this was my first station - i thought it was gonna be the 'traditional interview' station. i was given a case as if i had to take my father's friend to the airport. i didn't think it was such a complicated case but it was getting complicated on responding the father's friend's wish. it really taught me to be calm on every case i've got to solve.
second. discussion.
discussion cases are divided into 3 stations. the first 'discussion' station asked me the opinion about the questionable medical schools in indonesia and what should i do in solving the case. the second station gave me a case if my friend copied my other friend's paper while my other friend actually allowed him and in the problem i was put as the leader of the team. the last station was about kartu jakarta sehat then i was asked to give my own definition about it and my opinion. these stations were quite hard because no one would ever be wrong about the opinions given upon the cases.
third. writing.
i was really scared of this station. when i checked up the case, it was written that i had to write down an instruction in searching up an information with google. It wasn't difficult to write down such instruction, but it was difficult in making a different instruction than others. i really wanted it to be special yet meaty.
fourth. traditional.
It was my last station before the 'rest' station. i was quite prepared for this station but maybe i was nervous so that i was a bit stammered. but thank god i could go through it.
all of them have taught me many things such as in expressing my own opinions, quick thinking, keeping my own arguments. i have to be optimist about the result which is gonna be shown by the end of the month.
yesterday, i found this:
I'm sure, they will. keep up the courage!
7.5.13
Practice Or Theory?
Hello again.
so it's gonna be filled with my own opinions again. I'm not going to insult. they're just some samples of my own experiences and how did i react to them.
1
in this holiday, I'm preparing for some tests which maybe I will face (but I hope not to face them. it can be said as undangan). Before holiday, I've been in a fight with my parents. I really don't want to study this holiday for sure. I've prepared some non-academic programs which I can join this holiday. I've also prepared to read 2 thick books this holiday... and this day came.
my parents thought i wanted to join the regular test, well in fact I'm interested in the international test. and my reaction: I cried so hard. I was like 'i thought you guys supported me and knew what i really want' they were like 'nah'. actually I'm not scared of the test, i just think that's not me. i don't like it, therefore i had a right to fight.
in indonesia, public universities have much more appeal than the private. i may be weird, but i'm interested more in the private university - actually i'm looking forward to be accepted in a public university, but i'm joining a different program instead of the regular. my parents fought about this so hard so that i wouldn't choose this university. I was getting mad. for sure I'm looking for the universities which emphasize the practice rather than the theories. it seems that i'm having a phobia to my high school's experience.
my parents finally understood but we didn't talk for a day after that. now they're finally supporting my interests and from that situation, I can still conclude that i'm still having a big problem in revealing my own opinions, even to my parents. i should practice it instead of memorizing the theory.
2
I and my friends did an activity called 'sunday on turn' last sunday.i was the chairman of the activity. It was complicated to organize such activity. moreover that activity was held in a public room - not school. It was held in ancol and we had some difficulties in having the permission. i had some troubles in organizing the must-be-printed-stuff like poster and cards.
i have this friend who had a responsibility in taking care of those stuff. the next day or the day for the event to be held, she didn't come. but thank god, those stuff could be handled. my friend said that she didn't come because her parents didn't allow her. why? because of her semester's report. she also aren't allowed to join any extracurricular.
i don't think that's a good way to act to such situation. teens also should influence to some activities which can improve their creativity by practicing. i don't think some great theories can influence their success.
3
I've read struck by lightning for a long time ago and a sentence has attracted me: "what grinds me the most is that we're sending kids out into the world who don't know how to balance a checkbook, don't know how to apply for a loan, don't even know how to properly fill out a job application, but because they know the quadratic formula we consider them prepared for the world?" i think i should show this sentence to all people around the globe.
also i saw a quote once said "a good education is an education which gives a priority to creativity"
i didn't say that theory wasn't needed for education, but can we just appreciate the practice and also creativity?
so it's gonna be filled with my own opinions again. I'm not going to insult. they're just some samples of my own experiences and how did i react to them.
1
in this holiday, I'm preparing for some tests which maybe I will face (but I hope not to face them. it can be said as undangan). Before holiday, I've been in a fight with my parents. I really don't want to study this holiday for sure. I've prepared some non-academic programs which I can join this holiday. I've also prepared to read 2 thick books this holiday... and this day came.
my parents thought i wanted to join the regular test, well in fact I'm interested in the international test. and my reaction: I cried so hard. I was like 'i thought you guys supported me and knew what i really want' they were like 'nah'. actually I'm not scared of the test, i just think that's not me. i don't like it, therefore i had a right to fight.
in indonesia, public universities have much more appeal than the private. i may be weird, but i'm interested more in the private university - actually i'm looking forward to be accepted in a public university, but i'm joining a different program instead of the regular. my parents fought about this so hard so that i wouldn't choose this university. I was getting mad. for sure I'm looking for the universities which emphasize the practice rather than the theories. it seems that i'm having a phobia to my high school's experience.
my parents finally understood but we didn't talk for a day after that. now they're finally supporting my interests and from that situation, I can still conclude that i'm still having a big problem in revealing my own opinions, even to my parents. i should practice it instead of memorizing the theory.
2
I and my friends did an activity called 'sunday on turn' last sunday.
i have this friend who had a responsibility in taking care of those stuff. the next day or the day for the event to be held, she didn't come. but thank god, those stuff could be handled. my friend said that she didn't come because her parents didn't allow her. why? because of her semester's report. she also aren't allowed to join any extracurricular.
i don't think that's a good way to act to such situation. teens also should influence to some activities which can improve their creativity by practicing. i don't think some great theories can influence their success.
3
I've read struck by lightning for a long time ago and a sentence has attracted me: "what grinds me the most is that we're sending kids out into the world who don't know how to balance a checkbook, don't know how to apply for a loan, don't even know how to properly fill out a job application, but because they know the quadratic formula we consider them prepared for the world?" i think i should show this sentence to all people around the globe.
also i saw a quote once said "a good education is an education which gives a priority to creativity"
i didn't say that theory wasn't needed for education, but can we just appreciate the practice and also creativity?
6.5.13
Thoughts Of The Day
It's been a long long long time! I've been trying to finish a math exercise... well i can't. so that i decided to make this post.
As you can see, I've reverted most of my old posts to drafts which means imma 'start of something new'. I'm such a cheesy - also awkward - girl. I don't think I deserve to share my diary here. therefore, i should just share my thoughts which incredibly appeared in my mind, shouldn't i?
first thought.
I just watched cardcaptor sakura: the sealed card movie today. it's a continue of the first movie. for all of you who haven't known anything about this anime, it first came in a manga then it was made to series.
the series were incredibly awesome. i'm in love with the ending which ended with: "I'll see you again, right?" it was said by sakura to shaoran at the airport while he was going back to hong kong... and the series ended after it. oh i almost forgot to tell you, shaoran had confessed his feeling to sakura, but sakura hadn't. actually she also fell in love with him, but i don't think she replied 'i love you too' to shaoran which means that she hadn't confessed her own feeling. I cried by the ending of the series. it was somewhat ended with a cliffhanger. tbh i love such movie with cliffhanger ending. not cliche.
then I watched the sealed card movie, it ended with a predictable ending which ended with: 'i love you' by sakura. she finally confessed it yay! but i didn't really expect that ending and i also think it wasn't a really emotional way to confess. maybe some people think it was emotional because shaoran had disappeared before the happy ending, but i had already known how the confession might be done before sakura hadn't even confessed.
it was great tho because of some actions they made. but it was a bit cliche. me no gusta. luckily i'm a sakura x shaoran shipper, so i still could enjoy it.
second thought.
It's still about cardcaptor sakura. if you guys have ever watched the series, sakura, at first, was attracted to yukito. shaoran also felt nothing to sakura - he was also attracted to yukito's kindness (or foods). i think they were all cute that way. i love sakura's innocence when shaoran was getting to like sakura. i love that innocence and i didn't see any of it in the sealed card (tomoyo was still priceless tho). i think it was all because she was growing up in that movie.
I'm still looking forward to the next movie or series tho. i hope it would be a story of grown up sakura and shaoran, maybe in the high school, and they're getting a trouble with the cards again. i don't expect a cliche ending also an overload romantic moments. it could be ended with a goodbye between kero & yukito and sakura & shaoran because their tasks are all done. it's gonna be sad, of course, BUT I LOVE THAT. unpredictable yeah. or maybe a plot twist?
third thought.
I watched you're the apple of my eye yesterday and i love the ending okay. i'm planning to watch rectoverso. my friend said it showed 5 stories of 'unconfessed feelings'. AWESOME
fourth thought.
I'm in a trouble with math. i wish to be accepted in my favorite university without doing any test. hopefully i can reach my wish.I think i'm having a phobia to exams.
After the national examination, i feel my life's becoming much more complicated than it should be. I'm getting bored of studying and i wanna relax in this holiday.
relax.all.the.days
wish me luck x
As you can see, I've reverted most of my old posts to drafts which means imma 'start of something new'. I'm such a cheesy - also awkward - girl. I don't think I deserve to share my diary here. therefore, i should just share my thoughts which incredibly appeared in my mind, shouldn't i?
first thought.
I just watched cardcaptor sakura: the sealed card movie today. it's a continue of the first movie. for all of you who haven't known anything about this anime, it first came in a manga then it was made to series.
the series were incredibly awesome. i'm in love with the ending which ended with: "I'll see you again, right?" it was said by sakura to shaoran at the airport while he was going back to hong kong... and the series ended after it. oh i almost forgot to tell you, shaoran had confessed his feeling to sakura, but sakura hadn't. actually she also fell in love with him, but i don't think she replied 'i love you too' to shaoran which means that she hadn't confessed her own feeling. I cried by the ending of the series. it was somewhat ended with a cliffhanger. tbh i love such movie with cliffhanger ending. not cliche.
then I watched the sealed card movie, it ended with a predictable ending which ended with: 'i love you' by sakura. she finally confessed it yay! but i didn't really expect that ending and i also think it wasn't a really emotional way to confess. maybe some people think it was emotional because shaoran had disappeared before the happy ending, but i had already known how the confession might be done before sakura hadn't even confessed.
it was great tho because of some actions they made. but it was a bit cliche. me no gusta. luckily i'm a sakura x shaoran shipper, so i still could enjoy it.
second thought.
It's still about cardcaptor sakura. if you guys have ever watched the series, sakura, at first, was attracted to yukito. shaoran also felt nothing to sakura - he was also attracted to yukito's kindness (or foods). i think they were all cute that way. i love sakura's innocence when shaoran was getting to like sakura. i love that innocence and i didn't see any of it in the sealed card (tomoyo was still priceless tho). i think it was all because she was growing up in that movie.
I'm still looking forward to the next movie or series tho. i hope it would be a story of grown up sakura and shaoran, maybe in the high school, and they're getting a trouble with the cards again. i don't expect a cliche ending also an overload romantic moments. it could be ended with a goodbye between kero & yukito and sakura & shaoran because their tasks are all done. it's gonna be sad, of course, BUT I LOVE THAT. unpredictable yeah. or maybe a plot twist?
third thought.
I watched you're the apple of my eye yesterday and i love the ending okay. i'm planning to watch rectoverso. my friend said it showed 5 stories of 'unconfessed feelings'. AWESOME
fourth thought.
I'm in a trouble with math. i wish to be accepted in my favorite university without doing any test. hopefully i can reach my wish.
After the national examination, i feel my life's becoming much more complicated than it should be. I'm getting bored of studying and i wanna relax in this holiday.
relax.all.the.days
wish me luck x
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