National Examination

i've just got my result today. although i know it's still not fixed yet, i have no idea why i cried when i knew it. i started to cry like i wasn't satisfied with it. i expected to get higher scores than the reality one. but i realized that i should've been grateful to god that this doesn't mean the end of the world. i still have a lot of things to do to reach my dreams.

i think i cried because i think this exam is about pride. it can lower your confidence if you don't get your dream scores. for example in my case, my school is one of favorite high schools in jakarta, even indonesia. then as a student of that school, i expected to get pretty high scores on this national examination. thanks to god my school is on the top 10 of schools which got high averages upon this exam in the whole Indonesia. 2 of my friends are on the top 12 of indonesian students in terms of national examination's averages.

and also in this case, both my friends had never been on the first rank in school examinations before. in my opinion, national examination requires a luck. you can even get high scores even if you're never on the upper rank.

indonesian high school's national examination include 6 subjects such as math, physics, indonesian, english, chemistry, and biology. i don't think indonesian score really determines your destiny - the answers are mostly opinions. neither do the others.

my father said that the national examination's result didn't specify the future. we don't need to give out our national examination result in our acceptance job. my mother also told me that i had to work really harder in the university and also while doing my job - they're surely the real determinations. high school was only a preparation for the real battle. just let the past go by, high school is only the beginning, not an end.

i still have a lot of chances in reaching my dreams. i don't need to worry. i will keep doing my best and hoping god bless me.